Joan had been having a fairly good day at work. She has been practicing slowing down her driven Type A personality to be more heart centered. This was making a big difference in her whole life with work, family and play. Her big, big boss had shown up unexpectedly. He had come to discuss career path choices with her, which was a very pleasant surprise. It was something she had been asking for, for several months.
Soon after he left she received a call from another important man in a completely separate section of the company. He was not her supervisor but she had attended several of his seminars sponsored by the company. He wanted to be sure she had seen this particular job posting. No she had not and if she had she probably would have passed it by feeling she was not qualified for it. Interesting that he took the time to point it out to her. Did he think she was qualified?
This really threw her off balance. It was the perfect job and a promotion to boot. It would give her the flexibility to not only work from home 80% of the time but she could choose which of several big cities on the east coast she would like to live near. She had really been wanting to move back closer to her family. How amazing! But her anxiety levels soared.
She drove the few minutes home from work with a million thoughts racing around in her brain. Could she do it? Was she really capable? It was not in the area of the company that she had been working in, was this her big break? On and on and on. Normally her very friendly lab greeted her at the door jumping with joy interspersed with a few slurpy licks to top it off. Mom’s finally home! But not today. He looked at her sideways and slinked off to the bedroom.
“What could be the matter with him?” was her first reaction. She stepped back and thought again, “Could it be me? My energy is certainly catawampus.” So she walked back out to her car, took some nice deep breaths, centered herself in her heart, felt her energy, thoughts and anxiety slow down. She thought about how much she loved her dog and was grateful for him. She had really been looking forward to taking him for a walk. She felt so much better as she walked back to her front door again. Here came her old familiar bouncy lab doing his jumping up twisting around greeting dance. Interesting she thought, “it certainly was me.”